Bye

Feb 26, 07. We got up at 2.30 am, to get ready to sent Emmanuel to the airport for his 6am flight. Yep, his one month of holiday has come and gone. We had some time to linger..but the inevitable came. I knew it was coming. He is going to be away for at least another year. I will not see his face or feel his existence physically.

WE hugged, Nellie hugged him...he took out his boarding pass to show the officer..more bye-byes,,,we love you, we miss you as he takes the escalator down to the immigration point. I bent over the railings to see him walk through the auto-gate and he was gone. I was feeling what he might be feeling. I was feeling sad, was he? His head was kinda looking down after the escalator. I think he was feeling sad.

As we drove off from KLIA, I called him on the phone just to "hang on with him a little longer". There is so much you can say on the phone without nearing to burst emotionally. Yep,,,I am a softy when it comes to 'goodbyes'. I passed the phone to his mommy.

After about 8 hours, his girlfriend Marlene,text to say that he has arrived safely in Sydney. I am relieved that there is someone waiting for him back in Australia after leaving his family here in Malaysia. I still miss him so much.
See you soon my son.

My son is back for one month.

I cut short my trip in the Philippines because my eldest son, emmanuel was going to be back in KL for a month. It has almost been one and a half year since I last saw him. His hair has grown longer - really long.

How do I describe my one week with him? Loving him. Have been learning to really talk heart to heart with him - not that it is or has been difficult - just that the desire to really connect as much as possible - wanting to know and be known. He is going to be here only for another 3 weeks and I don't know when we get to see him again. He has one more year to go for his study in Sydney. We have been hanging out much - just both of us and other times with others.

Today we got the opportunity to sit down over tea to "talk". It was nice, pleasant, enjoyable, deep, thought-provoking, may be also fruitful. He talks about wanting to travel as much as possible after his studies. I asked him to share it with people whom he love. We talk about our desires - my desire for him and his own desires.

I think I am going to miss talking to him like that. So I am going greedy. Grap as much as possible of him.