Are you afraid to be naked?

His mother instructed me about administrating the medication:
if he cramps - take this; if he can't sleep take that; don't let him hold the medication; make sure this and make sure that. So JR is with me during the Chinese New Year as his family visits outstation. The last time he stayed with me was about 10 years ago. He has been in and out of psychiatric wards and other homes.

JR says very little and I try to get him to share what's inside his heart and his head.
Beside other things, these comes out quite often:
Am I disturbing you? Am I wasting your time? Am I boring you?
Are you angry with me?
Do you like me?

What do these questions mean?
Do "normal" people like you ask them - silently and aloud?
Why do we ask them? Who do you ask ? Are not the "whos" are the SO - significant others?
Big question?
Is THAT abnORMAL?

If it isn't, then J is very normal?
Is he not a reflection/ the unveilings of our inner psyche; the cry of our souls; our primal instincts - To be heard, accepted; to be loved; to be important enough to a few, 2 or may be at least........1?

Have we become so "acceptably normal" to pretend we don't have these questions and are
so afraid of such questions? Are we hiding behind some trees [ of our own achievements and successes ] with leaves of our possessions [ fashion labels, cars, houses or maybe even big churches ]covering our loins, singing our our self-composed out of rhyme songs " I am okie, lalala and I don't need anyone but me, lalala.?

Are we afraid to be naked?
Then, we go on hiding behind those trees - Adam behind the durian tree and Eve behind the banana tree. Isn't it fun to see people trying to talk to one another peeking out of our trees while holding on to our loose "sarongs" leaves?
Psalms 139:23
Search me, O God, and know my heart;Try me, and know my anxieties; NKJV

Random Reflections.

Invitational life 3
Time waits for no man - it keeps passing us whether we are aware of its value or not. Like money, it can be a fantastic servant or a cruel master.Whatever we do with our days, the winter seasons of our age will show our investments in time or vice-versa. Have I been a part of a fruitful Vine or a tired withered branch.Unless we live life intentionally with the matter of the soul as our priority, our depleted body at the end of the season will sigh of its emptiness, hollowness and loneliness. So I will sow time in lives - of all ages -in the very old and the very young and all in-between that He brings into my path. Through Him, I will choose to live that invitational life; offering His love through the bending and the brokeness of my heart.

The pain of selfishness and the joy of giving.
How can I give love when I have no love? - she asked.
Love is not something you have, love is something you give away - I said.

When and where have you lost trust?
He is a wonderful person who cares so much for me but I do not want to give him my heart - she said.
Why? I asked.
I am afraid -she said.

When pain is so normal, that it's comfortable.
Can we get so used to pain that we are afraid to feel otherwise?

Do you need to be lost before you start looking for yourself?

Aaaa...hh. Downloaded.

JESUS SAID " I AM THE WAY, THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE." amen.

Empowered by love

Theme 2006: Empowered for the nations
As a community of God, FCC will seek to understand, experience and embody the love of God, believing that God's love is the most powerful force of transformation - individual, community and the world at large.
In a postmodern age, people who are hungry for true spirituality are turning away from
organised religion" that has lost its relevancy to real problems of our world. That is the reason that we cannot just be "church attenders" without intentionally desiring authentic Christ-centred relationships, giving birth to true Spirit-led missional community of love. In this community of God, we meet real people with real problems and questions. We may not have all the right answers but we must strive to remain genuine in our hunger to expereince and to embody God's love.
Fundamentally and in final analysis people are still hoping to experience love, joy and peace. Out of the three words, only love can be used as a noun or a verb. Very simply, because of the experience of God's love through Jesus Christ, we also learn to love and in doing so we are able to experience peace and joy. Make love a verb first then we shall harvest peace and joy.
In the midst of inadequate explanations of human pain and suffering in this world we can only be agents of God's love that can bring healing and a little heaven to earth. May the church continue to be fortaste of what heaven is like - where tears are wipe away.
People are still searching for truth and life. Only through Jesus as the Way, are we able to truly come to know the truth that sets free and experience life abundantly. [ John 14:6; John 10:10 ].
How is your love life lately?

On the Cross
Love....Betrayed, Denied, Abandoned, Whipped, Beaten, Thorned, Nailed, Hung, Naked, Bleeding, Exposed.....Life Grasping... for the breath of life...
Alone on the Cross.
The cry of abandonment...."Father, Father why has Thou forsaken me"

At the foot of the Cross
A grieving mother and a beloved disciple...The eyes, the hands
..reaching towards the battered body..
Could not lift the agony..
The agony and desperation of separation from His Eternal Father...

Silence, Darkness,...
Angels watching, waiting, hoping....
Silence from the Throne

It was Friday....
Soon, a slow soon....Sunday
Will it come...

on the cross...

Random Catching ups.

On sunday night, was hanging out with 3 other senior FCC couples [ above 50 and going there ]. Had dinner together, coffee n chocolate and then capping it with a Midnite show of Narnia. What a new happening for 2006 - should do that more often!

Monday walkathon at FRIM [ Forest Research Institute Malaysia ] was refreshing to see all 3 congregations represented. Some went on to football and "touch" while the ladies were screaming away playing "tai tze". Guess the people that were screaming the loudest. I love to hear these 'mothers' playing and screaming so "child-lingly" [ children + darling ]

Am looking for a good church for a friend in England - at Castle Bromwich, Birmingham.

Needing some time off for some solitude - will be visiting Setiawan for a few days.

Malaysia Elvis, H.T.Long will be singing songs and ministering at FCC this sunday. Please invite friends, OK?