Joy of unmasking

On the stage of life, so many have got into their roles so well that they have really forgotton who they really are.
In the days of old, the actors wear masks to signify their roles. They are given specific scripts and have mastered every move in defined ways and directions so as to keep the whole show going, until they leave the stage. Whatever that might be really happening inside their being and psyche is put on hold.

In this new world that I have been for the past 3 months, I have oberved this stage of life from a very closed range. I have been much saddened that even in a Christian world and climate, God's people still feel the instinctive cue to act in a certain way. There's a lot of politeness, protocol and small christian talk that keeps a conversation going on at the surface for an uncomfortably short time. It's funny to sometimes just to wait to see who makes the move to get away from the awkwardness of a well-scripted polite exchange of social "ungrace". The end result of such an exchange is the hope that we will not meet the person again in a very long while to bear the pain of such deformed inhuman masquerading. In truth they have hearts that actually have so much treasures too unveil and offer to each other if only fear is overcome by true christian courage and love. On this day, I had a glimpse and a participation of two christian buddies, fully unmasked and listen to an unscripted, animated, joyful and uplifting interactions of hearts. It was thoroughly refreshing and cathartic for me as I joined in with loud happiness.

i will be leaving this world in a short time and a part of my heart will continue to bear the hope of divine breakthroughs in this community of God-lovers.

More than a song

By Tim Hughes @2003

I've had questions...wihout answers
I've known sorrow i have known pain
But there's one thing
That I'll cling to
You are Faithful
Jesus You're True

Chorus
When Hope is lost
I call you Saviour
When pain surrounds
i call You Healer
when silence falls
You'll be my song
within my heart

Stanza 2
In the hour of my sorrow
Through the darkest night of my soul
You surround me
and sustain me
My defender forever more

Bridge
i will praise You
i will praise You
Still i will sing to you
I will praise You
Jesus praise You
Through the suffering
Still i sing

A Consecration Prayer

Today, this day..is the day the Lord, You have made for me…and it’s so special to me. I felt such a sense of your drawing love for me. You have made the way and you have opened the door for me to enter in into this time and season of being magnetized into Your Presence. It’s truly not my doing. You and YOU ALONE have placed this growing desire within me ”to be Before YOU” in response to the prayers of many of your people who love me. I thank You for each of them. May you reward them generously and abundantly for their tenacity in seeking Your face on my behalf.

I stand in awe of You, of Your Mysterious Ways of Working. Eyes have not seen, ears have not heard what the Lord has prepared for those who love You. I am lost, dumbfounded, speechless, captivated by Your Amazing Magical Hands that have ushered me into this Place, this Posture, this Possibility and into Your Plan. Thank you Jesus, my Savior, my Lover, my Friend, my Elder Brother, my Shepherd, my Bridegroom, my Life and the very Breath in me.

Today I consecrate myself to You and to Your Deep Creative workings within my spirit, soul and body. I asked that You will align my thoughts, my passions, my will to conform to Your Mind, Your Passions and Your Desires and to the Destiny you have planned for my life. I acknowledge that life is Yours and Yours alone. You have redeemed, you have called me that Your Name will be glorified through my life consecrated to You.

I know that I cannot do anything without Your Holy Spirit. So I yield myself to the Holy Spirit to come in the fullness of His Power and Might. Holy Spirit, move in me through the time of waiting before You. In the worship, intercession, through the preaching and hearing of your word, let me hear You and Your voice clearly and empower me to Obey and Do the word .

I consecrate myself to the reading and listening and obeying of the word of the Lord. I pray that You will enlarge my capacity for Your love and compassion. I ask that You will enable me to be very childlike in my faith and trust towards You. Increase my delight and capacity to Wait Before You – intensify the longings and embracing of Your ravishing love for me. Let Jesus be seen more and more. Jesus, You shall increase and I shall decrease.

In Jesus Name.

letter to my son, September 05

Good day my son,

it's 7,30 am in Malaysia on Tuesday morning. Monday evening in Kansas city.
it's another day to work....son,,,,you are His light and you are His salt.

Go into the world and be excited to see what Jesus can do in you and
through you.
U r in the world but u r not of this world. U r of another world's system.
U represent the kingdom of God.

See God at work through your life at the marketplace....the train
ride, the walk to and fro the office, the conversation, the faces
around you, listen to Him, ask Him questions, listen to Him speak and
give simple obedience.

Another day of surprises in God, look for them and behold His Glory.

The LORD'S FAVOR IS UPON JOASH. FAVOR WITH GOD AND WITH MEN.
JOASH IS BLESSED IN HIS GOING OUT AND COMING IN.
HE IS BLESSED IN THE CITY AND IN THE TAMAN AND EVERYWHERE IN BETWEEN.
THE LIGHT OF JESUS SHINES IN HIM AND THROUGH HIM...DISPELLING DARKNESS AND LIES.
THE JOY OF THE LORD CARRIES YOU ALL THIS DAY.

BE BLESSED ,my dear son...love daddy.

26 years of Friendship

To my Beloved,
My Precious One,
My Ever Fragrant Princess.


Take my days
And fill them softly
With your smiles…

Take my nights
And warm them gently
With your kisses…

Take my love
And hold it closely
To your heart…
And I will give you
All that’s mine
To give

Yu are many things to me…
My friend….my lover…my wife
When I needed someone
To relax with, have fun with,
Talk things over with, just to be with…
You are my friend.

When I need someone
To share my deepest feelings,
Someone to hold,
Someone who makes me feel fulfilled…
You are my lover.

But above all, you are my wife…
Always by my side,
Sharing my joys and sorrows,
Making my days complete…
Filling my heart with love.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MY DARLING

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